Saturday, 15 October 2016

Ringing in my Head?

You left me in this corner.
You leave me in this corner, everyday!
Every single day!
Save those few moments you decide you need me.

I want to talk to you.
I want to tell you so much.
I want to tell you what I am made to feel;
What I am made to hear!

I am screaming on the inside.
No, I cannot contain it.
I am screaming out.
Why can't you hear me scream? Or is it
Why won't you hear me scream?

Is this all that I am to you?
Something of the past, a decorative piece in your house?
Am I now just a part of your house and not your home?
Why am I here?

I want to tell you something happy!
I want to tell you that you got your job,
I want to tell you that your brother is married,
I want to tell you that it is raining in the park,
I want to tell you that you won the lottery,
That you're a father,
That your flight tickets have been booked,
You're flying to Norway,
Share your best friend's life with you,
Spread the spicy gossip,
Make you meet your childhood friend from the days long gone,
That he is happy to know I am still with you- are you?

I want to empathise with you!
I want to tell you that your friend lost your gaming console.
I want to tell you that your heart is about to break.
I want to tell you that someone has passed away.
I want to tell you that I won't last for long.
I hope you understand that I am the warm silence amidst this sadness.

I want to scream out that there is a bomb somewhere.
I want you to be careful, darling.
I want you to know that I am here when you are in a puddle.
I'm here when you need to break awkward silences.
I'm here to protect you as much as I can.

I- how don't you remember what I am to you?
How don't you know what you are to me?
You were there to talk to me when I called.
I guess growing up changed you?
You spoke to me when I didn't speak to you first.
Where did you go?

I'm screaming for you. Why don't you answer me?
In the past few minutes, I have been screaming.
Are you listening?
Have I become a constant ring in your head, now?
Something that you're used to? Did you move on?
You no longer say "Hello!"
Where have you gone?
Will you come back?

I miss you picking me up.
Come back to me...
Answer this telephone.

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